A Wise Woman Video Series Course

From Jazmin in Georgia

"And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. (‭Philippians‬ ‭1‬:‭6‬ ESV)

I am confident that what I'm going through is for my good. He will use this to build me up. All the glory goes to Him alone. For the longest time, I have foolishly been building my house on sinking sand. I single-handedly destroyed my home with my contentious spirit and hardened heart. Reading this lesson has convicted me of my sinful nature. When my husband asked me for a divorce only a month and a half after our restoration, I immediately began to see the speck in his eye but could not see the log in mine! Reading this chapter reminded me that this battle is not against flesh, but against the evil spirits in this world. I have been lukewarm. I would claim to have a deep relationship with my Lord but I didn't even respect my EH as the head of the household. I was someone who "wore the pants" and made all of the decisions in the house without speaking to my EH, who is the head of the household. I had a "savior complex" where I felt the needed to save him. I thank God for His conviction because He has shown me that I am the one who needs to be saved from myself. And in order for me to be saved, I need to build my house upon the Rock and lay aside every encumbrance. Brokenness is what He longs for, and a broken and contrite heart He will not despise.

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I had to overcome playing the "blame game." Before this lesson, I couldn't see that I everything I was going through was actually God allowing calamity in my life. I used to think that when someone hurt me, that was my opportunity to let them go when in fact, God is using that person to get my attention.

It is my daily prayer to have the Lord first in my life. Sometimes it is a struggle because in the past I have let my circumstances get to me. But now I am surrounding myself in His word and have been putting the Lord first in my life.

Lord, I have been a foolish woman who built my house upon sinking sand. Forgive me for not letting You take control. I have been blinded by my sins and I praise You that You have laid them before me. Forgive me for still having a contentious spirit and for hindering the work You began in my husband. I have been rude and disrespectful towards him and did not respect his rightful place as the head of the household. Forgive me for operating in the flesh and not the spirit. Lord, please remove my heart of stone and begin to build a heart of flesh within me. In Jesus name, Amen.

Lord, Your word says "ask and you shall receive". I ask that You continue the good work You have started in me. Help me to build my house upon the Rock. Fill me with wisdom and understanding of Your word. It is my desire to love You and seek You more than anything. Please use my tears to water the soil so that I produce much fruit.