Day 22
A Heavenly Husband

but first a more Restored Marriage Testimonies

 

He Paid the High Price for my Angry Ways!!

"Humble Yourself"

God is good! My husband called one Saturday night around 11:30, clearly upset, and then asked me if I still wanted him. He told me that before I answered, he had to tell me everything. He did tell me everything and I was so sad for him because of the trials he was going through, so such pain.

Due to me learning what to do, God has been protecting me and while this was going on, I was in a peaceful calm place.

It was only 5 hours earlier when I once again completely humbled myself and cried out to the Lord. I cried so hard asking for him to change me, guide me and to forgive me because I had cost my son his father by my angry ways. I don't know everything that I said when I prayed, but I was pouring myself out to the Lord.

I was also looking forward to starting the classes here and thanked him for the material I had already been reading. Later that same night, my husband called and asked to come home. He arrived at home quickly because I found out he was already driving when he called. It seemed as though he was fleeing for his very life!

He left where he was living without saying anything and even left all his belongings (that were with him) there. I also found out that he had packed up weeks before to come home, but didn't. He says he wishes he had, but I knew it wasn't the right time because I wasn't fully where I needed to be. God protected me from failing miserably. I also believe that it gave him a more clear picture of his surroundings because on returning home, he said he never wants to live that way again. It was all due to the grace of God and Him answering my prayer, but only when he knew I was humbled enough and was ready.

The reason for my restoration, I know, was because I did seek God that night with my whole heart and soul. I didn't put my marriage first in my prayers, this time, but rather my relationship with Him. I completely and utterly humbled myself before Him like never before. I had also been doing some fasting that entire week. I don't think that my husband would have come home at that moment in time if I hadn't turned myself over to God completely.

How did everything begin? First I started reading all your materials. Then began working through your workers@home book... of which I am still de-cluttering but this is where I started. I had been making sure everything was ready for my husband following what that book was teaching about making my home ready for my husband's return.

And of course, I have been focused on God's lesson of a virtuous wife and following everything I learned. I separated myself from all who did not support me and put my sole focus on my relationship with the Lord only. I also completely stopped emailing my husband and even having the urge to meddle in God's works on him through praying for him. One of the lessons I read a lot, teaches us to really let go, not just say it but completely let go. I did that and humbled myself, focusing on my relationship with the Lord only. No friends, no family nothing but the Lord (except work). I toiled in my house making it a haven. One of the first things my husband told me is that he really loves what I have done with the house. I was also told how good I smell and that is from the book of Esther that I had been applying in my personal grooming.

The most difficult part of my journey had to be the loneliness as I do not live near family or friends. I moved to this city because of a job opportunity. My husband encouraged me to take it although it was away from him and our sons. I did as he asked, and while I didn't do it consciously thinking, like "I need to submit to him" that is what I did. My husband told me that he had me move here because he wanted us to split up. Then, at the end of December I was given Isaiah 43:18-19 and knew God was building the road in the wilderness to bring my husband home while he sent a river "refreshing" in the desert (where I live) to me. I am here so we can together be refreshed and grow in God's word.

The turning point was when I truly began humbling myself before God and completely turning it all over to him. It is having complete faith and demonstrating it by truly letting God deal with my husband. I had to stop meddling in God's work and plan. I wasn't shown this site until mid December and only because it was time to learn the principles of being the person who trusts God in all things.

How it all happened was that my husband just called after not talking to me for 60 days, hanging up on me when I called out of the blue (the day after Thanksgiving). I knew he would call at some point, but I did not expect him to call with such emotions, nor be driving 3 hours to return home leaving all the items he had taken with him. And based on what your resources have done for me, I do give them to people all the time. Recently I shared two of your books with my prayer partner.

To conclude my testimony I want so say that you must give yourself fully over to the Lord. You must not dwell on circumstances but trust Him in all things. Learn everything you can straight from the bible and keep learning how to be the wife God wants you to be, making your home as He wants it by going through your courses. Remember, in your darkest hours the Lord will answer and shine the brightest if you turn to Him and no one else. Again, give yourself over to Him and watch your miracle happen.

~ JoAnne in Nevada, RESTORED Restored in D.C. 

My name is Lakisha and I am  from Washington, D.C. I had been married for 9 years as of March 2011, when I became part of a marriage group on Face Book with several other women in marriage crisis and they sent me the book, “How God Can and Will Restore Your Marriage.” Soon afterwards, at the end of February 2011, I filled out a Marriage Evaluation Questionnaire.

My restoration journey began after seven years of marriage when I had gotten pregnant with our second child and my husband got bit by what I call “the lust bug.” Every woman (or any activities involving women) caught his attention. He stepped out on me several times, disrespected me and was very abusive.  

At the end of the seven years, when he decided he needed to treat me better and our three kids, he found out he had another child out of wedlock.  He went to court for paternity for this child (who was born on my birthday). 

During this trial, the Lord taught me to focus on GOD and work on myself. Stop seeing my husband’s sins and faults and get myself together to be a better wife, mother and servant of God. The transition was not easy and accepting that there was a possibility of another child out there that was not ours together made it worse.  

I struggled with accepting that this child was his, and agreed we would have to take custody of her in order to keep her out the CPS system. I prayed and cried and prayed and cried a lot!! I thought this was God’s sign to run for the hills. But, after much prayer, depression and meditation, I realized it wasn't. Instead, God wanted to use me as an example of being steadfast and patient in a difficult situation like this, that many other women may also have to go through.

Michelle:  Lakisha, like all women who have experienced a restored marriage, stopped focusing on her husband and his faults and submitted herself to God so that He could do the changing and refining that needed to be done in her.  Take notice that Lakisha didn’t “run” from her problems but instead she chose to “embrace” them and took hold of God’s promise and believed that “NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD.”  Lakisha realized and trusted that God was taking her through what the world would call a “hopeless” situation so that her testimony would be a blessing for others that would come after her.

The Lord showed me that He had to break me down to use me. I had to know the hurt to help others to heal. It also helped me appreciate my husband and my marriage!

Michelle:  Lakisha’s brokenness was the very thing that God used to bring wholeness to her life again.  Just like the Psalmist says, “My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.”  Ps. 51:17 (NIV)

The turning point came as I stayed in my Bible. It encouraged me to keep up the fight and I started to die to self and let God take care of everything. It was extremely hard and heart wrenching at times, but once I began to seek the Lord and put Him first (at all times)— the man who treated me so badly became the man I needed. God changed him and he became so patient and loving and began to become the leader and a blessing to his family. 

Michelle:  By putting God first in everything, Lakisha said that her husband became the godly man she needed him to be.  Again Lakisha trusted God and His word, “For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife...” 1 Corinthians 7:14 (NIV)

The Lord not only found me fit to be the mother for my step-daughter (who we gained custody of), but I got pregnant again with our last child weeks after we found out about my new step-daughter. 

During this journey, I realized that no matter who or what, God’s Word is what matters and we each need to fight the good fight to be the example of God's love, mercy, grace, and forgiveness.

~ Lakisha in Washington, D.C., RESTORED

 

Finally got my Ex-Husband out of My Heart!

Hi, my name is Sabrina and I'm from Georgia. I had been married for 6 years when I found RMI.

I always had in my heart that I wanted to marry someday, but, I never knew that I actually would. When I met my husband I knew there was something special about him. I had always been very shy when I dated, but not with him. We began dating and my husband surprised me one day by making a statement saying, "You are going to be my wife.” I knew there was something about him, but marriage wasn't what I had in mind and from my expression he knew it too. As we were dating, GOD started dealing with us in regards to intimacy, since we were not married. We started reading a book that "scared us straight" and we quickly married and began going to church.

After 3 years we started having troubles and I became contentious. I constantly started asking him to leave and also began shaming him by my words, which resulted in him becoming distant.  I just didn’t care anymore! Satan had a field day with me and boy did I suffer because of it! You guessed it! My husband just up and left me. We were separated for 5 years and after 3 ½ years, I wanted a divorce, even though a "still small voice" was telling me not too.  But because I was rebellious, I went through with the divorce that my husband never wanted. Afterwards like most of you, I felt empty and lonely, so I began dating a married man (who was at the time separated) thinking it was going to help me to get my husband out of my heart and off my mind. But GUESS WHAT???? It didn't.  

I can honestly tell you that I really don't know how I ended up here at RMIEW, but thank God I did. This ministry has brought me such a long way and has showed me so many things I never knew about. It's a wonderful place to be and to grow in the Lord and experience Him, believe me I know!

Now over the years I always told God I wished He would fix my marriage, and wanted to know why I could not get my ex husband out of my heart. This is something I just couldn't understand. I cried for so long and then soon after coming here I ran into him. I found out he was involved with someone else and had been with this woman for 4 and a half years (she was marriage but separated from her husband).

After seeing him, I realize I wanted my marriage back and then stopped messing with the man I was with. My husband, on the other hand, was still involve with the other woman so it looked pretty hopeless. As I said, I guess I always wanted my marriage and felt that is it hopeless until I ran across your ministry. I quickly read Erin's book How God Can and Will Restore Your Marriage and boy did this show me so many things about myself and what I could finally admit, that the marriage mess was my fault. I felt so hurt because of my past actions. But reading Erin's testimonies and all the others made me feel wonder and hopeful that possible mine could be restored too.

Soon God began helping me a lot, but I realized I needed someone to be there to guide me. I knew it would not be easy. Soon after I changed, I began to see my ex and talk to him, but knew this was not enough. I wanted to see God move just like he moved in Erin's situation and everyone else's. When I filled out my questionnaire I ended it with: Please help me.

Thankfully I never went to counseling, so I didn't make mistakes like that. On Friday, December 23, 2011, was a big turning point for me, it's when I decided I needed to begin helping other woman, and I filled out the Minister in Training Evaluation so I knew what I would need to learn to help women in crisis.

RMI has meant so much to me. When I applied to become a Minister in Training I wrote to the Team:

My heart is so still so overwhelmed because of things I have learn about myself. It has made such a difference in me, because I didn't know I was carrying all this stuff. It's been a challenge but what you all mean to me, words can't express. You all have help me to see what God has probably been trying to show me but I couldn't sit still long enough to listen. You showed me it's not all about me and my marriage being restored, but it's more about helping others— thank you so much!

The reason I am interested in becoming a MITC "Minister in Training Candidate" is that even though I never thought of being a minister, I know I can encourage other women very well, even when I can't encourage myself. There have been many people who tell me that I needed to be a minister, but I thought "No, not me." But I really enjoyed just lifting people up, you know, it made me feel better when I did.

NOW, after being here almost a month, and going through your first course, I now want to be what GOD wants me to be, and if it's being a minister, wow, it will be such a joy to know you made a different in one person life—that's joy!

When Jesus healed the ten lepers and only one came back, it make me look at myself. I want to be the one who came back and made the difference.

Now I need to confess that with all of this I tripped up! My husband continued to come to see me after seeing the changes in me, and we continued to see each other but against scripture, we started having sexual relations even though we were divorced. Deep down inside I knew it was wrong, which only led my husband to be confused between me and the other women. Then he left me again after 3 months after he had promised we were would marry. I was devastated.

Surprisingly, this time I was okay, and knew I just needed more time with the LORD. I went through storm after storm, but God was always with me. I confessed my involvement with my FH to the RMIEW leaders, and I was immediately set free from guilt. Then I began to move forward and put all my focus on the Lord—completely letting go of my husband. I kept my mouth quiet, fasted and constantly prayed to be closer to Him. That's when He helped me learn to depend on Him and Him alone.

It was at this time that I wanted even more to help other women with marital issues because I didn't want anyone to feel the way I was feeling. I wanted to share the peace I received after I finally put God first in my life and began seeking Him alone; not my husband or my children. I started trusting Him in everything because He wanted so much to be part of every situation my life (as well as yours).

The turning point came when my ex-husband and I began dating him again but I also found out about the OW, that she was still in my husband’s life.  I cried like never before to GOD, pouring my heart out to Him. I started talking to GOD and I told Him how I was feeling (not anyone else) and that I wasn't going to stop crying out to Him and He helped me.

As I said before, He first led me to find Restore Marriage Ministries and I knew it was GOD’s will to restore my marriage after I saw the heading “How God Can and Will Restore Your Marriage."  I ordered the book and discovered God’s principles, and I learned how I had violated so many of them, which brought me to my KNEES. I immediately asked God to forgive me and went to all five of my children and confessed my faults instead of my husband’s faults as I had done in the past. Then I was led to contact my former husband and apologize for everything. HE said that he had forgiven me a long time ago.

Ladies, God is AWESOME!  I first would like to thank God for what He is doing in my life and KNOW this; I had nothing to do with this. NOTHING!

On March 8, 2013, my marriage was restored! YES it really!  MINE! I was remarried on March 8th and believe it or not. Just before we remarried, my husband began opening up his heart to me and spending time with me but this time without us being intimate—I just couldn’t believe he wanted to wait too. WOW!  God knows how to turn things around!!!

My husband even apologized and confessed that he never wanted to leave me. I can’t express enough how long I was not ready for all of this and why I asked the Lord if it is His will and He if wanted us to be remarried, then have my husband ask me again—and to my amazement—he did!

Yes, I still have a lot of work to do, but my GOD has got me. Ladies God is AWESOME and He is all we need.

Dear friend, never think the Lord doesn't hear your cries, He does. We can't help, but God is faithful in every area you need Him in. You see, this is why you are here now because He's heard you cry. Be ready to grow and know that everyone in this ministry loves and cares for you.

"Dear Jesus, guide and help this woman and let her know that, there's nothing to impossible for You and You are their new Husband now and trust You only. AMEN"

Be Blessed.

~Sabrina in Georgia, RESTORED

The Journey finding
My Heavenly Husband

• There are some who don’t believe in God.

• Others who only know a God who doesn’t care about us, the God of the Old Testament.

• Others know God as their Father in differing degrees; some fear Him, others know Him as kind and loving.

• But it’s not until you know and experience a HH “Heavenly Husband” that you will no longer long or need an earthly husband.

* Without the Lord as your Husband—you will continue to long and look for a man and stay vulnerable to wounds not intended for His bride—YOU!

“Mr. God”

I’m going to start this lesson with the PR “praise report” below, which is a common mindset that prevents women from experiencing the Lord as her Husband.

The PR actually helped us pinpoint and understand how your upbringing can influence or block the relationship that each of you deserves—having a Heavenly Husband. In her praise report, Yvonne referred to God, rather than her HH like many women use (but even when we see women use HH, we often don’t see the kind of close Heavenly Husband relationship in her life— but we will explain more about this later).

So, used by permission, we want you to see what He showed us, and what led to Yvonne finding her Heavenly Husband, which she ended her praise report with:

I want my heart to be hidden so deep within my Lord. Do you?

Each time she used the name God, He told us to put Mr. in front of it and change the font to red.

I want to Praise Mr. God for His love and faithfulness and protection.

In the beginning of the month Mr. God was constantly showing me through His word that He is my protection. That I should find rest in Him. That I should hide in Him. So I asked, Mr. God is there something coming?

So immediately I started fearing instead of trusting. It took me a few days to allow Mr. God to calm my fears and just in time for a few trials that came one after another.

So when all the trials came and some were just a series of small things that went wrong and others were things that I really hoped would not happen to me. Let me just tell you about a few so you can understand:

This all happened within a week of each other. My EH wanted to come back and went to break up with the OW and never did. Returned the next day to fetch the children as if nothing happened. Then suddenly he took the children to meet her without me knowing and he went with her on holiday to our honeymoon spot and came back and told me about it. Through all this my dog got bitten and almost died of the blood loss and my electricity was cut off for 2 days.

In all of this Mr. God was faithful letting me know exactly what was coming and when it happened I wasn't surprised.

I knew Mr. God was there carrying me through the worst and as I was in a period of fasting, I knew I could trust Him for everything.

As I was fasting and everything happened around me, I was growing closer and closer to Mr. God. I was clinging to Him with everything I had. Every time I cried out, Mr. God would comfort me with His word.

During this time Mr. God was also showing me a sin I committed and although I did ask Mr. God for forgiveness, I had to confess to my EH. For the longest time I tried to avoid it. Ignoring that small still voice of Mr. God. I couldn't anymore and did the right thing last night. Mr. God showed me that all that kept me from confessing was my own pride and Mr. God had to break that out of me. He made everything go smooth and I so love Mr. God for making it so easy on me when I really did not deserve it as I have sinned against Mr. God.

Ladies, fasting is so important if you want a close relationship with Mr. God and to be honest, trials is also necessary for a close relationship with Mr. God. Mr. God wants to bless us so much more than we think or dream but for me it is more important to do His will because I want to spend eternity with Him.

In the last few weeks I have learned so many valuable lessons. One of them was the importance of putting all my trust in Him and not man. The Lord is so precious to me. Without Him this road I am traveling would not have been possible. He has a reason for every little thing that happens to you. You just need to trust that He does. Not feeling but knowing.

I read a wonderful quote today that said: "A woman's heart should be hidden so deep in God that a man will have to find Him before he can find her." So beautiful. I want my heart to be hidden so deep within my Lord. Do you?

And what also revealed to us that she wasn’t just using a different name for the same Person, throughout she is experiencing a “far off” God, who is waiting to judge her and the rest of the world.  I so love Mr. God for making it so easy on me when I really did not deserve it as I have sinned against Mr. God.

As the Lord’s bride, Yvonne would not think like this, but would simply be grateful for her Husband’s love, not contemplating whether she deserved it or not, nor how she “sinned.”

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love"—1 John 4:18

This means, if you don’t have a relationship with Him as a Husband like Yvonne didn’t have, and instead you too have a “far off” God, then it makes it very difficult or nearly impossible to let go of your EH “earthly husband.”

Most of you realized that the coldness your husband had towards you was due to the new woman he found to replace you. Most likely your husband would not have rejected you IF you were all he had or could have, right? So your husband was sure to get someone (or many women) who willingly would fulfill the needs a man has.

It’s the same with you, if you are NOT able to get your needs met (to feel loved and secure and provided for and listened to and understood) you, too, will never ever be able to fully let go of your EH—which shows up in how much you talk about him. It’s very much like a teenage girl who talks and thinks and writes and dreams about the guy she likes (especially a guy who doesn’t like her) does!  And you know from being a teenager that when some guy knows you like him, he is often more cruel.

It’s the same with a husband. It wasn’t until my husband and many other women (now with restored husbands) sensed their wives were no longer interested and could sense she was “in love” with someone else that things changed. And as we say in many lessons, even if you say and profess you’ve let go, it’s not until a EH sees it in his wife’s face that “she’s in love” and “in love with Someone else” that it gets his attention. And no amount of professing can change it. It’s something that is deep down that you can’t pretend. Even we can clearly see it in a PR when you can’t stop yourself from the mentioning of your EH and your focus is still on events that are the most important to you—because they involve him.

What helped Yvonne find her HH is what we wrote to her:

1/28/14 Morning Yvonne,

While SG about how to help you in your RJ the Lord led me to this verse:

“And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you...’” (Matt. 7:21, 23). This word “knew” is a term of “intimacy” and it's the very same word that was used when a man “knew” his wife in the Bible.

While reading your PR I noticed over and over who you were referring to, God which is like calling Him, Mr. God: Someone you are formally acquainted with but far from having a close intimacy with a Husband.

"Your testimonies also are my delight; they are my counselors"—Psalm 119:24

On Monday, 2/17/14, Daily Encourager “"Burden Lifted!" is a wonderful testimony that I hope will help you overcome this 🙂 so you can be free to really feel you are His bride and will naturally not only call Him by a different name, but in your alone time you may even begin calling Him names like Darling, Sweetheart or something else endearing.

Reread your PR to see the difference, also that your Husband won't break His bride, nor will you feel you don't deserve anything, but instead He'll gently hold you by the hand 🙂 until worthiness is not even a consideration. ~ Erin

Less than 2 weeks later we got another praise report:

2/11/14 “My Beloved is Mine and I am His”

The Lord is good and so very precious to me. I have been on a fast asking the Lord to please show me how I can have more of Him. How I can put Him first in EVERYTHING. During the fast, I went through some trials and now that I look back they were actually not that bad. Oh ye of little faith.

In order for you to really understand what I am talking about I will need to give you some background information. I live in South Africa, the very Southern tip of Africa. In my country we have 11 official languages (no it is not a typing error, 11) of which one is my mother tongue, Afrikaans. The way we are taught to respect elderly people and even strangers is by addressing them as "U" (the closest translation I can get to that would be "thee, thy or thou". So imagine in the English language meeting someone on the street and saying "Hello, how are thee?. (Something out of Shakespeare) LOL.

So, while I was praying to the Lord for guidance to grow closer to Him, I got an email asking me to read through an Afrikaans translation of the first chapter of the RYM so RMIEW could begin having lessons in Afrikaans. So, as the book was already translated, I took the "old translation", the "new translation" and the English version and compared them. What really stood out for me is how the new translation did away with "thee, thou, thy" and replaced it with "you". For example: instead of saying "How God can and will restore THY marriage", it said "How God can and will restore YOUR marriage". I think you get the picture:). Now replacing the "thy" with "you" made it more personal and intimate for me. So there the first seed was planted...

While hoping that my fast would bring me to a closer relationship with my Husband, instead what happened is He started to feel further and further apart. I wrote a Praise Report and these feelings could clearly be seen it the Praise Report. Oh but God...

I got a message from Erin giving me some advice on how the way I addressed the Lord was so formal, like calling Him “Mr. God” and as I read the message again, I prayed for wisdom and suddenly the translation I read came to mind again and I then I found myself asking: In my prayer closet, would I call my Husband "thee", would I call my Best Friend "thy" would I call the Lover of my soul "thou". The answer came back NO every time.

This was a big step for me going against the way I was raised and at first it felt very awkward. What is so strange is that if I would pray in English I would call the Lord You, but in Afrikaans it just felt weird.

Through the leading of the Holy Spirit I persisted and WOW, the change in our relationship. Now I know Him and He knows me!

My dearest dearest Lord, is my Husband who provides for me. He is my Friend to whom I can talk to and share something funny with. He is my Confidant who I can share my secrets with. He is my Counselor when I need wisdom to make a decision. He is my Strong Tower when I need shelter and soooooooooo much more!

Now I can come to His throne with boldness, because I belong there. I can walk with my head held high, not because I am better than others, but because I am a woman filled with the Holy Spirit.

My sins are forgiven and my past is just that, the past. I can use it at reference for my testimony but I won't regret it because the path I was on lead me to Him. Now my future is His.

I can face any trial, not because Jesus is holding my hand, but because His arm is around me and I am resting my head on His shoulder and looking at His face in awe as He is looking lovingly down at me while we walk this path to eternity…

And it’s not just that our ministers understand and embrace this principle— there isn’t a more important lesson than this one “Finding My Heavenly Husband” because it’s what my entire ministry has been about. From day one, the focus and desire of my heart has been to share with other women Who will change her life and replace her sorrow with joy!

Psalm 30:5—

”Weeping may last for the night, but a shout of joy comes in the morning.”  

Since becoming the Lord’s bride and still being called to have a ministry that reads horribly painful details from women who are abandoned, brokenhearted, used, abused, neglected and cheated on—it means I’d either have to be thick-skinned to be able to read them without becoming sad and depressed. Or, I can see the good in it. Instead of being sad, I am instead excited—because I know there IS a solution, I know there IS hope, and I know that each and EVERY woman who comes to us in despair and rejected—can be comforted and LOVED the way she deserves to be LOVED— by a Man who is longing to be her Husband!

Yet, the same trouble that most of them are facing, is the same issue that we and He are facing.

Most women come to RMIEW because there is an OW in her EH life, while, at the very same time, each of you are committing the same unfaithfulness, with an OM. Your other man is your earthly husband, your EH, that you can’t stop speaking about, wanting to be with, wanting to be restored to, yet, is still hurting and rejecting you. At the same time, you continue to treat your Heavenly Husband the very same way that your EH is treating you. And just as your EH believes he can’t help it and doesn’t even want to be free from the OW—the same is true for many of you. This, I have trouble understanding. On one hand there is The Man who died for you, who paid the price so you would no longer live in slavery. And yet, the man who continues to reject and hurt you is who you continue to seek.

“She will pursue her lovers, but she will not overtake them; and she will seek them, but will not find them. Then she will say, ‘I will go back to my first Husband [the Lord], for it was better for me then than now!’”— Hosea 2:7

God has done everything He can to remove this OM “other man” from your life so you would be faithful to His Son:

“You [God] have removed lover and friend far from me; My acquaintances are in darkness”—Psalm 88:18

“You [God] have removed my acquaintances far from me; You have made me an object of loathing to them; I am shut up and cannot go out”—Psalm 88:8

And yet, the OM, who has been unkind, unfaithful to you is who you still long for. 🙁

SAVIOR

True, some of you have embraced the Lord as your Savior and have even made it far enough along in your Restoration Journey that He has or is becoming your Lord, because you are beginning to obey Him.

“Why do you call me Lord and not do what I say?” Luke 6:46

Not surprisingly, this may seem like it would be enough, but it’s not. It’s falling so short of what He has for you, like living on the wrong side of the Jordan and not crossing over to the Promised Land.

The LORD wants you even more AND He wants EVEN more FOR you.

And it’s due to this lack that has gotten the church in trouble. She seeks after other gods and money and fame and methods to help the lost and dying of this world. But she can’t give what she doesn’t have. Remember, He was speaking to the church when He said “But I have this against you, that you have left your first love.” Revelations 2:4.

He desperately wants to free you from the pain and rejection and fear and every lack of need you have. And it’s not just for your sakes, because He wants it for your children’s sake (grown, young or not yet born). He wants children to experience the joy and blessings and anointing of having a Father, the Father to the fatherless (Psalm 68:5) so that not only are they NOT being raised by a single brokenhearted mom, thus filling that void through peers and drugs and sex, then acting out in violence to deaden the pain. And this destructive course that most young people are on can only change if they have a mother who finds a replacement Father, by having a Heavenly Husband, so there can be peace in their home so the children can begin flourishing in every area of their lives—not in spite of— but due to the difficulties He is bringing them through!

“But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a peculiar people.” 1 Peter 2:9.

We see the fruits of this throughout our Praise Reports, from Michelle’s grown children who are being baptized, to Rose’s autistic son who sings about Jesus. Everyone is still amazed and in awe of my own children who each have a passion for the Lord and honestly profited because of what they went through and are going through as adults and parents themselves.

Don’t your children deserve to no longer be abandoned and neglected and hurting children—but be children who are blessed—all because their mothers chose to become His bride?!?!

If you’re still hurting and fearful, it’s due entirely to your unfaithfulness to your Husband.

Like most of the Restored Marriage Testimonies you hear, there was a time after my restoration that I felt there was something missing from my life. I remembered hearing a song that reminded me of how amazing I felt years earlier, when I had no EH but only my Heavenly Husband and I longed for those days. Atarah experienced it too.

“It was Better for Me Then than Now”

Specifically for Standers

Isaiah 4:1 speaks of a time when “seven women will take hold of one man in that day, saying, “We will eat our own bread and wear our own clothes, only let us be called by your name; take away our disgrace!”

Standers want their husbands back, so much so, that even if they’re divorced they will remain intimate, proclaiming it’s a covenant, even though legally they are no longer married. In addition, many women find that they become friends, often friends with privileges (sadly as is common today), but never return to the marriage and become monogamous and faithful to their marriage.

When I first began this HH lesson, I honestly believed that if a woman came from a “standers” ministry, RMM “Rejoice Marriage Ministries” or Covenant Keepers, that they would NEVER be able to know the Lord as their Husband. Why? Because after years and years and years of ministering to women who have come to us after being a stander, women continued to pursue their husbands and I found it to be one of the biggest addictions to which I was unable to, but begged God for, a cure.

Back only a few months ago, I was still heartbroken that even though a dear friend and former minister of ours continued to financially support RMI weekly (as she always has), she never got over the addiction she had for her ex-husband. I’ve often wondered how any man could be that amazing?!?! But then I have to say how could ANY man compare to the Lord?? No one could. So I had to assume, that due to her never being able or willing to let go, she never experienced the Lord as her Husband and it still breaks my heart 🙁

It’s the very same thing as a man not letting go of the OW so he’s not free to cleave to his wife when he returns, which sadly is what RMM faces daily. The founder of one of the stander’s ministry began her ministry when her husband returned, however, he’s written books and speaks openly about “still having fond and loving feelings” for the OW. When I heard them speak decades ago and before my marriage was restored, I told the Lord that to me that’s not being restored. And that I did NOT want my husband home until the OW was no longer in his heart.

Hence when my husband said he was staying with me, but then went back to the OW for another month— I didn’t understand that the Lord was giving me the desires of my heart. My restoration wasn’t done. Had my husband returned still “being fond and thinking of the OW” it would be far from what He had in store for me. Yes, that month was the lowest point of my RJ and when, as I’ve shared, that I lost all faith in God restoring my marriage. But as I also said, it was the four women whom I had invested hope in for their marriages, who carried me through that time (and why we are so focused on you helping other women, so if necessary, they will be strong enough to carry you in your most difficult times). It was only later that I found out that it was during this month that my husband began to loathe the OW, so that after we were restored, and she contacted him again, trying to allure him again, he ran as fast as he could away from her because he couldn’t stand her.

Unfortunately, I still don’t know how to help women to loathe their husbands long enough to fully embrace the Lord until they are One, and He is first. But I am so thankful that He has shown us that being a former stander and having their husband back is an addiction that can be broken thanks to Atarah.

If you notice the LOVE that Atarah feels for her Husband, is first, and because of it, her EH is drawn to her “my husband and I are so in love.” But she got to this point or juncture in her Restoration Journey ONLY because she had her priorities straight—the LORD was first. The Lord was first in her life and first in her heart.

No, it doesn’t happen overnight, it’s a process and it’s a journey—often beginning with first understanding that you are a child of God the Father.

What’s in a Name?

For us to see how far women have traveled in their Restoration Journey, as I said, we watch WHO she speaks about in her Praise Reports. Very often women remain too “far off” from having a close and personal relationship with their new Husband because they can’t get past God Almighty or God the Father.

When we get a Praise Report from most women, when we see they are struggling, most is due to them being a “single” mom and thus they believe they still have NO husband. Most women do have faith in God, and may even see God as their Father (some go so far as to refer to Him as “Daddy”). But God, even as a Father, can’t meet the needs of a woman who has been rejected by her husband, which is why in everyone’s Marriage Evaluation, without fail, we say... focus on your relationship with the LORD, looking to Him as your Husband—since this is the reason He allowed this crisis to happen. Read what He wants to say to you and mark these verses in your Bible to read EVERY day.

“Fear not, for you will not be put to shame

And do not feel humiliated, for you will not be disgraced;

But you will forget the shame of your youth,

And the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more.

“For your Husband is your Maker, Whose name is the Lord of hosts; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel, Who is called the God of all the earth.

“'For the Lord has called you, Like a wife forsaken and grieved in spirit, Even like a wife of one’s youth when she is rejected,' Says your God"–Isaiah 54:4-6

"Instead of your shame you will have a double portion, and instead of humiliation they will shout for joy over their portion. Therefore they will possess a double portion in their land, Everlasting joy will be theirs. For I, the Lord, love justice, I hate robbery...and I will faithfully give them their recompense and make an everlasting covenant with them. Then their offspring will be known among the nations, and their descendants in the midst of the peoples.

All who see them will recognize them because they are the offspring whom the Lord has blessed.

And what you will say, once you've experienced this is...

"I will rejoice greatly in the Lord, My soul will exult in my God; For He has clothed me with garments of salvation, He has wrapped me with a robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with a garland, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the earth brings forth its sprouts, and as a garden causes the things sown in it to spring up, so the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring up before all the nations"—Isaiah: 61:7-11

The only way you will falter or stumble is IF you continue to pursue your earthly husband or even pursue restoration rather than the Lord.

Revelation 2:4 I have this against you, that you have left your first Love.

In the same way that we may get help and support (both financially, emotionally and mentally) from a fantastic earthly father, a “father” can’t meet the needs and be a “husband’ to us. So this is another reason why I felt led to and SG “sought God” to write a full lesson to help explain why the needs of so many Christians go unmet and why far too many Christian women commit adultery or fall into idolatry.

Song of Solomon

Song of Solomon 2:16—

“My Beloved is mine, and I am His”

For months, you have to have noticed, that the Lord has been alluring you after leading you out into the wilderness along your Restoration Journey with Him.

Hosea 2:14 “Therefore, behold, I will allure her, bring her into the wilderness, and speak kindly to her.”

He’s spoken so kindly to you everyday through His word, and yet you still haven’t answered His call.

In Song of Solomon it says He came for His bride and began knocking, but she had been asleep and it was too much work to dress again.

“I was asleep but my heart was awake.

A voice! My beloved was knocking:

‘Open to me, my darling,

My dove, my perfect one!

When she finally did get up, she couldn’t find her Beloved, which caused her to search for Him.

“I have taken off my dress,

How can I put it on again?

I have washed my feet,

How can I dirty them again?

“I arose to open to my beloved;

“I opened to my beloved,

But my beloved had turned away and had gone!

I searched for him but I did not find him;

I called him but he did not answer me.

“I adjure you… If you find my beloved,

As to what you will tell him: Tell Him I am lovesick.”

If you don’t answer His call now, you may never hear it again. And I can’t even begin to tell you what you’ve missed. It’s heartbreaking.

God the Father versus Jesus His Son

The Trinity is one of the most complex concepts of the organized church. In no way do I want to or feel capable of explaining this—since I’m not sure I fully understand it myself. 😉 But, what I do understand, and what is more important, is I have experienced personally what I hope to convey in this all important lesson.

Understanding God the Father, the Lord as my Heavenly Husband, and by understanding and knowing this, I can live my life having ALL my needs met!

“And my God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19.

God met our needs when He sent His Son: we needed a Savior, we needed a Lord to obey who could “wash us with the water of His word” and also as a Husband, with us as His bride.

In the same way as our first relationship with our Father begins—long before we contemplate or NEED a husband—so too our relationship and need for a heavenly Father begins.

Believers go from understanding there is a God in heaven (or worse, a God who is out to “get” them), to finding Someone they can go to for Fatherly guidance, support and Someone who is simply Rock solid! God the Father.

I’m so grateful that I was blessed with an amazing earthly father. We were extremely close and I was known in my family as being his favorite. Though he’s been gone since 1995 and I do miss him, that neediness of a father (that many struggle with) was met when I was a child and even after I was grown, and a married adult. So though I now SG “seek God the Father” for wisdom and should I need to repent of anything, like forgoing my will, so His will can be done—God the Father is not Someone I spend much time with—because I am grown and because I have a Heavenly Husband.

1 John 1:7-10—

“The blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He [God] is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

Luke 5:21—

“Who can forgive sins, but God alone?”

If my father was still alive (and even when he was alive and I spent time every day with him the year that he was dying), I still spent the majority of time with my earthly husband. I’m sure this makes sense to everyone.

However, for many women who did NOT have a good or present or loving earthly father, you may have a huge void in your lives that still needs to be filled by a Father. The perfect example is our former farm neighbor, Debbie.

Though both Tara and I speak often and openly about the Lord, Debbie always speaks of her Father and focuses on Him (unless she’s speaking of Jesus the Savior)—and there is nothing at all wrong with that! Debbie is clearly a Christian, loves the Lord, but what makes her focus different than mine are two things: One, she has an amazing earthly husband. Two, she never had a father she could trust.

Debbie’s father, though very present (and living and visited often until just recently when he passed away) had 5 different wives, children from those mothers, and always fought for and got custody. Debbie grew up with many “mothers” but a father who was not able to love her. Thankfully, she met and married a wonderful earthly husband, a “good ole boy” who was raised by a very strong Christian mother, who led Debbie to the Lord when she was first married.

Though Debbie does look to the Lord, as I said, she looks to Him as her Savior, the Lord of Hosts warrior who rescued her, but what she still needs is a Father whom she can trust.

You may relate to Debbie and also need a Father you can trust. As I said before, many women who come to RMIEW go so far as to refer to their Father as “Daddy.” However, it’s not what we normally allow in our Encouragers. The reason is, it’s uncomfortable, and that means we need to use discretion. It’s sort of like a grown woman jumping into her earthly father’s lap, calling him Daddy in front of you. Awkward. But in private, let’s say if she never had a father, or didn’t know her father and discovered him later in life, privately this would make perfect sense.

Let me explain this. Normally calling God the Father, Daddy, is taught or encouraged by a church—no doubt from a pastor who didn’t have a father figure in his/her life. And that’s really where and why most women are stuck in only knowing and experiencing God the Father—entirely missing the Lord, and what He longs to be—because they remain in an organized church and are led in the direction the pastor leads them.

When my children were little, while on their way to church, I explained to them about God their Father. Because this IS a part of growing spiritually. At the time, my daughters had an earthly father and were too young to really understand or need a heavenly Husband.

On our way to church, very often I would use the time to explain to them that when you’re in church, and everyone is worshipping, it’s fine to think of God as a King to be worshipped. But think of God as being a King and you are the children of the King. When everyone is worshipping, you should too; it’s not the time to go running up and sit on His lap, hugging and kissing Him.

BUT when you are at home, how much would it hurt Him, your Father, if you stood back and fell down and worshipped Him and kept repeating prayers or poems to Him? Right, He’d be hurt and lonely missing His children’s love and affection.

So I explained that church is fine, BUT when they are at home, He wants His children to jump in His lap, tell Him everything you're thinking and feeling and ask Him loads of questions. At night, talk to Him while you’re falling asleep and when you wake up, imagine He’s stayed next to your bed watching you sleep, so say Good Morning to Him.

Church, I would explain, is where you join with all the Kingdom to worship and sing praises to Him. But they as His children and He as their Father needed much more time all week long to be close. So I encouraged them to talk to their Father alone, every day, whenever they needed someone to hold them and comfort them and help them feel safe—especially when my older four children were young and their father left us. They needed to know that their Father would never leave or forsake them. If you or your children still feel insecure, here is a list of verses to read often. I will Never Leave or Forsake you.

And for any of you who have not had a loving father in your lives, it’s important that you come to know God this way, as your Father who you need to feel cares and protects and who is close to you all the time. He is not someone waiting to strike you down or catch you doing something that’s wrong to punish you. He is loving and patient and wants you to become His Son’s bride. If He thought you were so horrible, would He send His Son to die for you? Would He tell Him to take you as His bride though an adulteress? (Read the book of Hosea “Then the Lord said to me [Hosea], ‘Go again, love a woman who is loved by her husband, yet an adulteress.’”)

*The book of Hosea, like Atarah, you may have read with your husband in mind, but it’s really a book written for us, His church and us personally as His bride who was/is unfaithful to Him.

Back to God the Father. For me personally, I had a wonderful earthly father, and even though he’s been gone since 1995, I don’t feel the need to ever crawl in the Father’s lap. BUT I do miss having someone wise, who loves to listen and discuss things like my father and I used to do. And that’s why it’s wonderful because the Bible does say that when we lack wisdom or finances and many other things it’s the FATHER who we should go to:

Lack wisdom? “But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.” —James 1:5

Need anything? “And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” —Philippians 4:19

Having a wonderful Father to discuss things with or when we are in any need (financial or anything else), BUT when we are old enough to want and need the companionship of a husband, like when we each found ourselves “rejected” and “ashamed”—it is a Husband we need, who is very different than God the Father.

Our Heavenly Husband—His Son Jesus

In most evangelical churches, Jesus, the Lord, the Christ is normally confined to being thought of and discussed as a Savior. Yes! We need Him to be our Savior, first, but like a spiritual war hero, the Lord wants us to know Him as more: As a Person, as a Friend, and also, intimately as His bride! And when I said “intimately” is because this word is really about willing to being exposed, not hiding anything.

The church recognizes that we will “someday” be His bride when He comes back for us. But, when I was abandoned and rejected I couldn’t WAIT for my Husband who I needed to help me with my four small children each day, to comfort me so I no longer slept alone, and who I knew would hold my hand as I walked through day-to-day living with a horribly wounded heart.

This is why we don’t begin by explaining to anyone coming to us the differences of God the Father, Jesus the Savior, or any other Person—since, almost always the woman is in the midst of a marital crisis. Instead, we simply introduce her to her Husband because she NEEDS Him! Not when she dies, not needing to know He died for her and how to be saved. She needs to begin to be held and embraced and comforted and loved. No matter what her upbringing, no matter her religious background or lack of religion, she needs a relationship!

That’s why, when we received a Praise Report from one of our translators and Ministers in Training, someone who is farther along their Restoration Journey, yet who are still struggling or speaking about God more than the Lord or their Husband, we know we need to help her grow spiritually and get past this stage so she can experience the Lord as her Husband, where her real void and hurt is.

* This pencil sketch above is by Macy Thiele, Erin’s youngest daughter.

War Stories

Having the Lord as my Husband, I have come to understand why reading praise reports about Jesus dying on the cross etc. began to bother me. I spent a lot of time asking Him to show me what was wrong with me, when one day He did show me why by using an analogy.

My niece is married to a Navy Seal and like all men of valor, he never speaks of what he does, no war stories, not ever. And as his wife, my niece would never, ever speak of his valor knowing how uncomfortable it makes her husband feel. My nephew does what he does for his country. In the same way, the Lord of Hosts does what He does for His Father’s Kingdom. And true heros are uncomfortable when anyone talks about it— and so are their wives but in a different way and for a different reason. My niece knows the dangers of her husband’s profession, and how close he has come to dying and being tortured when captured. Even though he is a bit too old for active duty as a Seal, and now trains Seals, she doesn’t want to think about all he’s sacrificed for his country, for her, for their children. None of the Seal wives do. And if someone does talk about it, she’s quiet and tries to get away from the discussion.

Yes, He did die, and is coming back on a white horse some day, but just as my niece doesn’t want to think of her husband in any of his bloody battles or should war break out again, I feel the same way.

When we are alone, I don’t speak to the Lord of Hosts, my Husband or discuss what He did for me or for His Father’s Kingdom. Instead it’s about here and now and mostly, because He called me, about how I can help women who come to us. One new group that is ever growing is our “not yet married” group of women. Like women in the world, we get Christians who for one reason or another (we don’t ask) they have been living with and even calling the man her husband.

Though new to me, it’s not new to Him, since He met the woman from Samaria in John 4: 7-38.

Not Yet Married

We have many women who are not legally married, but due to them awakening and living as if she were married, we help her find her heavenly Husband. We encourage her to refrain from any further intimacy since her relationship with her ex-boyfriend or fiancé or partner or “father of her children” is more like a woman who is divorced.

There are a few, however, who really don’t need a husband. My daughter Tara for instance.

Like a few younger unmarried women who are or have taken our Rebuilding Courses, she is not married, she has never “known” a man, and actually has never even had a boyfriend or been on a date. One day she expressed this to me that it’s a little awkward for her to experience the Lord in the same way as 99% of the women who are part of RMIEW do. So after SG, I was able to explain it was because there was NOT that void in her life. But what IS a huge void is having a betrothed, a future Husband, who the Lord is to her now until she marries.

When I referred to her relationship with the Lord this way, as being betrothed or engaged, she  got excited and went on to say this was more of how it used to be back before, when an unmarried woman dated and gave themselves to men who they were not married to. That, actually, it was even farther back, when young women trusted their parents to find them a suitable and honorable husband. She said it’s like she had an “arranged” marriage—by God the Father—and that means, I told her, because He is Prince of Peace it makes her His Princess. And can I say, in my eyes, she’s is like a pure and untouched princess. 🙂

From Tara’s early teen years, when she committed to never dating, she’s been wearing a promise ring (many mistake it for an engagement ring) and was often told she’s like a princess, but not in the way it’s usually thought of. They say she is more like a real live princess, more like Grace Kelly who played this role in one of our favorite old movies, the Swan. In this movie, her character has been saving herself and been groomed to be a queen, therefore, she had spent her entire teen and early twenties learning how to be a queen. This meant she never had boyfriends, but set her sights on what role she would play in her husband’s kingdom—which would of course meant she would certainly not have past intimate relationships with common men or boyfriends.

As for Tara, having a close relationship with her betrothed now, the Lord, is what helps her not get antsy or get ahead of Him. She has no interest in dating and says she never even is tempted to look at anyone either. Instead, right now she’s focusing on making sure she will be a good wife, mother, homemaker (cooking, cleaning, shopping) and learning to do everything well. This, I’ve told her, will ensure that this transition from being betrothed to being a wife, will be an easy transition—one she is already well prepared for. And since she has never been close to any man (other than her father and brothers), she will have no trouble being “one flesh” with her future husband, loyal to him alone.

"I'm Not Worth"—Wisdom

Titus 2:3—

“Older women likewise…teaching what is good, that they may encourage the young women…”

Wisdom From Erin

Many women remain at the feet of Jesus when He is longing to embrace you in His arms.

Yes, we do see Mary Magdalene in Luke 7:37-39, kissing the feet of Jesus, drying his feet with her hair from the tears that flowed, however, as His bride the Lord longs to have your heart full of gratitude, but not continually bowed down.

We also see when Ruth slept at the feet of Boaz (Ruth 3:6-8) but once he redeemed Ruth, and took her to be his wife.

Just as we say in each Marriage Evaluation:

We want to encourage you to  focus on your relationship with the LORD, looking to Him as your Husband—since this is the reason He allows each crisis to happen—so you will come to know Him and His love.

Assignment: Read what He wants to say to you and mark these verses in your Bible to read EVERY day.

“Fear not, for you will not be put to shame [insert your name]

And do not feel humiliated, for you will not be disgraced;

But you will forget the shame of your youth,

And the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more.

“For your Husband is your Maker, Whose name is the Lord of hosts; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel, Who is called the God of all the earth.

“'For the Lord has called you, Like a wife forsaken and grieved in spirit, Even like a wife of one’s youth when she is rejected,' Says your God"–Isaiah 54:4-6

"Instead of your shame you will have a double portion, and instead of humiliation they will shout for joy over their portion. Therefore they will possess a double portion in their land, Everlasting joy will be theirs. For I, the Lord, love justice, I hate robbery...and I will faithfully give them their recompense and make an everlasting covenant with them. Then their offspring will be known among the nations, and their descendants in the midst of the peoples.

All who see them will recognize them because they are the offspring whom the Lord has blessed.

And you will say, no longer bowed down but embraced:

"I will rejoice greatly in the Lord, My soul will exult in my God; For He has clothed me with garments of salvation, He has wrapped me with a robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with a garland, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the earth brings forth its sprouts, and as a garden causes the things sown in it to spring up, so the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring up before all the nations"—Isaiah: 61:7-11

~ Erin

Definition

Worthy: deserving effort, attention, or respect.

Unworthy: not deserving effort, attention, or respect.

Synonyms (words that mean the same):

undeserving

ineligible

unqualified

unfit

Bible Support

Proverbs 31:10

[Description of a Worthy Woman] An excellent wife, who can find? For her worth is far above jewels.

Revelation 5:12

“Worthy is the Lamb that was slain to receive power and riches and wisdom and might and honor and glory and blessing.”

CONCLUSION

There isn’t a more important lesson and principle that’s in the Bible, in my opinion, than understanding, seeking and Finding your Heavenly Husband. When I, like Atarah, began to yearn for more, I SG for how. I asked Him if I needed to read the Bible more or sing praise songs or love songs or go for long walks alone to find Him like that again. I was desperate.

What I realized was like salvation, like being filled with the Holy Spirit, it is nothing I COULD do. It was a void that only He could fill and because I sought, and knocked and pleaded, He told me to repeat what I didn’t yet feel.

Lord, You’re all I want.

Lord, You’re all I need.

Lord, You’re all I live for.

As I said, when I said those words each morning and night (and each time He’d bring it to my mind) I didn’t FEEL anything. But at some point, it began to spring up within my heart and my countenance took on a glow!

If you’re willing to let go of your EH (in the same way you hope your EH will someday let go of the OW), then I promise that repeating that phrase will change your life.

Lord, you’re all I want.

Lord, you’re all I need.

Lord, you’re all I live for.

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