Whew boy. A few weeks ago my husband decided that the children needed to move in with him. Where I live has become…not the best option. So I agreed quickly. I get to go to his home, my old home to watch the kids, homeschool them (huge victory in that alone) while my EH is at work. I don’t see them on weekends, because they can’t come to my home. I don’t want to go visit them at his house every weekend. Anyways, huge huge huuuuuuge praise I am so excited.
Where I stay, my uncle’s heart, gradually has become hard. He is almost vicious towards my small children, has so much bitterness and God showed me that it was him hardening my uncle’s heart! Praise God! I wasn’t mad or sad but I could feel that something was coming up, that me and one of my sons would have to leave soon move out soon! My little ones cannot even come visit and be safe! That’s not what my HH wants for us!!
Then a week or so later, my EH calls and says he found a babysitter, I don’t need to come over anymore!!
What?! A babysitter?! I didn’t even know he was looking! He told me a few weeks ago, he wanted only me to raise his kids not a sitter!!
So awhole week goes by and I pray and I fast with my new prayer partner (another answered prayer praise God!!) I don’t fight it, I decided to trust God !
One evening I take my kids back to their dad’s after a Celebrate Recovery group, and my EH asks me to talk with him outside. So I agree. My EH confessed how wrong he was to bring this babysitter to live in his home to care for his kids!!! And he listed all the things he was so sorry for doing to me and how he loved me and wanted even my son to come live with him again (prayer answered)
And how their is a hole missing in the home without me there. Etc lots of things. I don’t say much. I listened. Stayed calm.
The next day, we never spoke of it. A whole week goes by and I realized he changed his mind. The enemy almost stole my joy …….
But then quickly I realized I needed a new home still ….. All the whole this spiritual unrest at my uncle’s was still happening.
Where would I move ?! Who knows but God!! I don’t work! I have no savings! Only bad rental history!
So, I decided to take what I’ve learned here and in the Word and praise God! Thanking Him for a new home! A safe place for all 4 of my children to come and be loved and love Jesus! A home I can plant a garden and flowers!
A place to have my woman’s group and drink coffee!
A week goes by, and I take my son to a job interview. A family associate owns many businesses and we have known him and he employs my oldest teenage son in his construction business.
My 15 year old son calls me into this interview, saying the man wants to talk to me.
He pulls me in to the meeting and tells me that God put it on his heart to get me a my children a home! Haha yes. A home. He wants to help my older boys, pour into them ,give them a job (another answered prayer) help them learn to take care of their families!!
And that he wanted to pay my rent and I could serve to help with money ( another answered prayer)
Oh and the last thing he asked me haha was if there was anything specific I’d like in the house??
To which of course I answered, I would love to have a place to make a garden.
Haha how wonderful, was that. I praised God from that!!
A few months ago I never would have believed this to be possible. I doubted God’s love for me. I only saw abandonment, my marriage dead, my son’s moving out, I had no faith.
This ministry, pointing to God’s WORD and TRUTH has pointed me towards trusting God for more.
So today I praise Him for my new beautiful home. Chosen just for me!
Praising Him for all of my children able to come and laugh and be all together!
Praising Him for beautiful furniture, because I have nothing. I let my EH keep everything.
Praising Him for the big bright cheerful living room and kitchen to minister to women, to fellowship with the ones who my HH brings me!! To feed and laugh with!!
I am so excited today and will not let the enemy steal my joy!!!
Praising God because I KNOW He wants to use me. To encourage others. To speak truth and life. To serve and give freely what has been freely given to me.
This was long but sooo much has gone on in the past few weeks it’s seems absurd. Choosing to ride the wave of adversity and praise God as I know He will use it to set me up for the blessings and the testimony!!!