Reflections on This Leg of the Journey

A little over a month ago I felt led to start from the beginning of Course 2, Securing Your Success.

I posted about it here: https://hopeatlast.com/he-leads-me-in-his-perfect-time/

Well, today I finished, and all I can say is WOW! It’s been a wild and wonderful month, coming to deeper understanding, surrender, commitment to and love for my Lord. He showed me this morning that it has been EXACTLY one year since my marriage crisis began in earnest (the spiritual crisis had been building for years).

I would like to share the letter I wrote to my Heavenly Husband in my journal for the final lesson.

“My Beloved,

What a journey You have taken me on! A month ago, at the end of March, You led me to start this course from the beginning. You asked me to submit to RMI’s leadership and to do the lessons on my computer, submitting a form for each of the lessons. At the time I pushed back a bit, telling You that I didn’t WANT to think about my marriage anymore. I wanted to move forward with You. I was tired of looking back. I wanted to begin the women’s Bible study at church on Hebrews and I knew I wouldn’t be able to do both. You asked me to let it go.

After the first lesson, You showed me what You were up to. Reading through that first lesson, I knew I was different, reading through new eyes, much like I’ve been reading Your word through new eyes since You broke through my hard heart. I could see things in it I had not seen before. You had changed me. I was now ready to UNDERSTAND the principles I had been following out of blind obedience after my initial quick-read through the materials. You reminded me of where I was when I began (in a state of broken-hearted desperation), and You asked me to take Your hand and let You take me on a tour of all the work You’ve done and everything You’ve brought me through. I grabbed on with both hands, excited to see what You wanted to reveal.

Over the past month, You have further refined me, taken me through tests and re-tests. You have given me more opportunities to cry out to You, trust You, praise You, and learn to depend on You alone.

You have given me room and opportunity to grow. You have rewarded my diligence with faith, virtue, knowledge, self-control, perseverance, godliness, brotherly kindness, and finally….true love.

“But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love. For if these things are yours and abound, you will be neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.” -2 Peter 1:5-8

These gifts are from You. They are mine and nobody can take them from me.

“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” -James 1:17 (NIV)

Oh, My Love…You take my breath away! Thank You, thank You, thank You for everything You have done, are doing, and will do. How did I ever live before I knew Your love?